Beside this busy main road is their home, their world.
I was filled with anxiety and fear when I step in. The staffs are all warm and friendly, this help a little to easy how I was feeling.
I was given 2 thick files and just soon after, she came in.
She stuck out her tongue and her eyes were no in focus, I sensed that there was tension in the room. This is the first time she is meeting me, and probably I’m the first person, other then the staffs in the Home, she is meeting for the first time of her 25 years in this Home. She will be with me for the next 13 to 15 weeks or so.
After a 45 minutes “conversation”, I got to know her better. I must admit that it was really very difficult. 35 year old girl with the mind of less than 3 year old, communication id one of our greatest barrier, most of the time, I was guessing what was she talking about, even the 1 word answer.
Just as I was about to go for lunch, another emergency situation arose.
He just flew into rage and was kept in the room that he is familiar, Time-out room.
The staff took him to see me, for that moment, I became one of the consequences of his behavior. 18 years old with the mind of a child. Fight, snatching food from others, ransacking the dustbin to find food regardless if it is rotten or dirty, a consistent visitor of the time out room. This melancholy experience led me feeling wistful.
Trails will always be trails when people choose to escape from it. Beside the busy road, in the never sleep company, there are people who flight very hard each day to proof themselves yet just within the thin line, there are people who chose to give up. Perhaps that was the best option that one can take. Well, well, people just have to go through certain event in life to learn and grow from there.
What is life all about, there are some people who are just waiting for death yet on the other hand there are some people struggling, fighting every single moment they have. What is the ideal meaningful life? Life is full of suffering and yet at the same time is also FULL of OVERCOMING. Face all trails with equanimity and trails will no longer be trails….
All is WELL….
27 July 2008
23 July 2008
The Natural, Un-natural Self
By nature, I'm some one who don't really plan.. I love random and I like unexpected situation. BUT my reality requires my to plan A LOT.
I was just telling a friend of mine that I'm planning to get married at the age of 28.
So he was aksing, aren't you suppose not like planning and you are planning to get married, just as I wanted to share more about me dream ... he stopped me...
My godfather wrote an email to me this afternoon and REMINDED me that I need to take time off to find a boyfriend and he added that.. "don't tell me that you don't want to get married". In my mind, I was .... "what's the rush..."
Perhaps, we are at the age whereby soon, we will be going through the phase of “leaving home” setting our own family, we start to plan. One of my dreams is to have 5 children. Whenever people hear that, their eyes and mouth will be wide open! YES! I want to have 5 children. My ultimate dream in life is to have a warmth loving family, 5 children and my lovely husband. I said before, the moment I have my first child (before age 30), I will leave my full time work. I see myself as a therapist and I want to work for myself.
Having landed property (Semi D or Town House), with a little mini zoo at home, I had even plan for the animal that I want to keep. There will be 5 rabbits (the color will be: Cream, coffee, hazelnut), 5 tortoises (land tortoises), 2 dogs, hamsters and fishes. One of the floors in my house will be used as classrooms or therapy room. I will work during my free time, I will have classes at home while I take care of my children. A typical home-maker, preparing healthy breakfast for my lovely husband and children, in the evening, teach my children and prepare sumptuous dinner for them. Meanwhile, I’ll write books (need to have income to raise my children). My mini zoo and garden (will have organic plants at home) will be my therapy area. And my eldest child is about 15 I’ll start to lecture in open-university (night classes).
I was just telling a friend of mine that I'm planning to get married at the age of 28.
So he was aksing, aren't you suppose not like planning and you are planning to get married, just as I wanted to share more about me dream ... he stopped me...
My godfather wrote an email to me this afternoon and REMINDED me that I need to take time off to find a boyfriend and he added that.. "don't tell me that you don't want to get married". In my mind, I was .... "what's the rush..."
Perhaps, we are at the age whereby soon, we will be going through the phase of “leaving home” setting our own family, we start to plan. One of my dreams is to have 5 children. Whenever people hear that, their eyes and mouth will be wide open! YES! I want to have 5 children. My ultimate dream in life is to have a warmth loving family, 5 children and my lovely husband. I said before, the moment I have my first child (before age 30), I will leave my full time work. I see myself as a therapist and I want to work for myself.
Having landed property (Semi D or Town House), with a little mini zoo at home, I had even plan for the animal that I want to keep. There will be 5 rabbits (the color will be: Cream, coffee, hazelnut), 5 tortoises (land tortoises), 2 dogs, hamsters and fishes. One of the floors in my house will be used as classrooms or therapy room. I will work during my free time, I will have classes at home while I take care of my children. A typical home-maker, preparing healthy breakfast for my lovely husband and children, in the evening, teach my children and prepare sumptuous dinner for them. Meanwhile, I’ll write books (need to have income to raise my children). My mini zoo and garden (will have organic plants at home) will be my therapy area. And my eldest child is about 15 I’ll start to lecture in open-university (night classes).
14 July 2008
Take Pride at Work = Taking Responsibility
I just finish watching Air Clash Investigation on National Geographic.
National Geographic is one of my favorite TV programme.
Today it was featuring the “almost” air clash Air Canada.
It was a new plane Boeing 746. What happened was that ½ way the journey, the fuel tank alarm went off indicating that there is low pressure, meaning that the fuel tank is running out of fuel. The interesting thing is that the digital measurement, which work by calculation indicate that there should have fuel left. So the pilots have to perform an emergency landing, but before they could even execute the task, all the tanks alarm went off. This was the first time in history that an air plane operated at both engine down in 26500 ft above sea level.. is like holy crap.
Well, the pilot did manage to land, with nose break not functioning. It was a real close shave for all the passengers and the crew member. The interesting part is the investigation. After months of investigation, they found out that what went wrong was that the amount of fuel to be pumped into the air plane was calculated wrongly. GOSH.
The amount to be pump into the air plane is usually calculated in kilogram. In this flight, the amount of fuel needed should be 22,300 KG, but the airplane technician pump in 22,300 lb of fuel. The approximate KG à LB is 1KG to 0.5 LB. So which means that the technician only pump in ½ of what is required for the entire journey. The error is in the calculation of fuel in different metric. This little mistake could have caused 80 lives.
Yes, many of us would say that it maybe a small mistake. I remember very clearly that when I was taking my Diploma in Chemical & Pharmaceutical, there is one module about industrial safety. I remember the module very well, because most of the lectures, my lecturer will show case similar disastrous events and we will start to analyses where when wrong. A comment that lecturer made that leave me with great impact till today is: for any disastrous event to take place, there must be a lot of small ignorant mistakes or “take for granted” events to take place first. Therefore, each individual personnel hold an important role and responsibility for the position. A small little mistake can snow ball into something beyond imagination. A technician who role is just to top up the fuel tank could have caused a deadly air clash. Of course, the pilot is also at fault too for not checking the calculation that lead to the next level into the disastrous event.
Take Pride at Work, Take Responsibility for your Actions.
National Geographic is one of my favorite TV programme.
Today it was featuring the “almost” air clash Air Canada.
It was a new plane Boeing 746. What happened was that ½ way the journey, the fuel tank alarm went off indicating that there is low pressure, meaning that the fuel tank is running out of fuel. The interesting thing is that the digital measurement, which work by calculation indicate that there should have fuel left. So the pilots have to perform an emergency landing, but before they could even execute the task, all the tanks alarm went off. This was the first time in history that an air plane operated at both engine down in 26500 ft above sea level.. is like holy crap.
Well, the pilot did manage to land, with nose break not functioning. It was a real close shave for all the passengers and the crew member. The interesting part is the investigation. After months of investigation, they found out that what went wrong was that the amount of fuel to be pumped into the air plane was calculated wrongly. GOSH.
The amount to be pump into the air plane is usually calculated in kilogram. In this flight, the amount of fuel needed should be 22,300 KG, but the airplane technician pump in 22,300 lb of fuel. The approximate KG à LB is 1KG to 0.5 LB. So which means that the technician only pump in ½ of what is required for the entire journey. The error is in the calculation of fuel in different metric. This little mistake could have caused 80 lives.
Yes, many of us would say that it maybe a small mistake. I remember very clearly that when I was taking my Diploma in Chemical & Pharmaceutical, there is one module about industrial safety. I remember the module very well, because most of the lectures, my lecturer will show case similar disastrous events and we will start to analyses where when wrong. A comment that lecturer made that leave me with great impact till today is: for any disastrous event to take place, there must be a lot of small ignorant mistakes or “take for granted” events to take place first. Therefore, each individual personnel hold an important role and responsibility for the position. A small little mistake can snow ball into something beyond imagination. A technician who role is just to top up the fuel tank could have caused a deadly air clash. Of course, the pilot is also at fault too for not checking the calculation that lead to the next level into the disastrous event.
Take Pride at Work, Take Responsibility for your Actions.
13 July 2008
All Out of Love - cont. Love Rules
Back by popular demand … When love knocks at your door part 2.
This is also the continuation of the previous blog post.
I have a friend who recently fell out of love … and I wish that she will see this blog post.
Love can be enjoying, thrilling and exciting and yet at the same time it can become painful when falling out of it. I just hope that my friend can pull herself up soon.
Life goes on…
Some says that love move from different spectrums and dimensions. It is just like a double-edged sword.
Love Rules…
Rule no 11: Love can be a double-edged sword; it can hurt you with both ends. Be prepared.
Rule no 12: Love cannot be put on a weighing scale. If you are looking for balance, don’t touch it.
Rule no 13: Love has its valley of ups and downs. Be ready to ride the downs with pride.
Rule no 14: Love can make you into a better person only if you know who you are in the first place.
Rule no 15: When you are choosing who you want to fall in love with, keep in mind that others are doing the same.
Rule no 16: Appreciate what you can do for love. It is wise to know what to give and to get.
Rule no 17: Love is not an object. It cannot be possessed. Give others the freedom to choose love.
Rule no 18: Love is a game with no rules. If you want to play it well, be sure you know how to lose.
Rule no 19: Love is a feeling that may change with time. Give others the right to change their minds.
Rule no 20: The timing of breaking off is a personal choice. Be gracious to accept it when it comes.
Golden Rule: Love can give you both Joy and Pleasure. But it cannot guarantee you no pain.
This enlightening book about what love is… is specially written by Mel Chang.
If you are interested in the detail of, feel free to contact me.
This is also the continuation of the previous blog post.
I have a friend who recently fell out of love … and I wish that she will see this blog post.
Love can be enjoying, thrilling and exciting and yet at the same time it can become painful when falling out of it. I just hope that my friend can pull herself up soon.
Life goes on…
Some says that love move from different spectrums and dimensions. It is just like a double-edged sword.
Love Rules…
Rule no 11: Love can be a double-edged sword; it can hurt you with both ends. Be prepared.
Rule no 12: Love cannot be put on a weighing scale. If you are looking for balance, don’t touch it.
Rule no 13: Love has its valley of ups and downs. Be ready to ride the downs with pride.
Rule no 14: Love can make you into a better person only if you know who you are in the first place.
Rule no 15: When you are choosing who you want to fall in love with, keep in mind that others are doing the same.
Rule no 16: Appreciate what you can do for love. It is wise to know what to give and to get.
Rule no 17: Love is not an object. It cannot be possessed. Give others the freedom to choose love.
Rule no 18: Love is a game with no rules. If you want to play it well, be sure you know how to lose.
Rule no 19: Love is a feeling that may change with time. Give others the right to change their minds.
Rule no 20: The timing of breaking off is a personal choice. Be gracious to accept it when it comes.
Golden Rule: Love can give you both Joy and Pleasure. But it cannot guarantee you no pain.
This enlightening book about what love is… is specially written by Mel Chang.
If you are interested in the detail of
12 July 2008
10 Amazing things in 5 days !!!
Hi People !!!
How is the world treating you ???
I have been in total amazing / mind blowing world of my own with my very first backpacking buddy Trina. There are a lot of first time !!!
10 amazing things that I did over the past 5 days in Indonesia.
Counting Down with excitement ….
10. Travel from Jakarta to Jogja to Pangandaran without PLANing. (that is so exciting and my buddy and I underestimate those places, many of time, we need to run around finding accommodation)
09. Eating the road side food in Yogyakarta
08. Shopping in Ambasador (the “pirated” building in Jakarta)
07. Bargain in Maliboro Shopping Mall
06. Took public bus no 5 by the road side.
05. Dinner at Steak-house (The place whereby I fell deeply in love with the furniture)
04. Breakfast in Mini Tinga à lovely home-stay that serves fantastic breakfast
03. Taking 3 buses to reach Pramanan Temple!!! (in total from Borobudur to Pramanana is 6 buses !!!)
02. Swimming in Green Canyon à you got to see the pictures when I upload them.
01. Ride a motorbike without license in Pangandaran
I just can’t wait for Trina to pass me the pictures so that I can upload them…
Pen off for now ….
Time for my Tolak Angin ….. *cough cough*
How is the world treating you ???
I have been in total amazing / mind blowing world of my own with my very first backpacking buddy Trina. There are a lot of first time !!!
10 amazing things that I did over the past 5 days in Indonesia.
Counting Down with excitement ….
10. Travel from Jakarta to Jogja to Pangandaran without PLANing. (that is so exciting and my buddy and I underestimate those places, many of time, we need to run around finding accommodation)
09. Eating the road side food in Yogyakarta
08. Shopping in Ambasador (the “pirated” building in Jakarta)
07. Bargain in Maliboro Shopping Mall
06. Took public bus no 5 by the road side.
05. Dinner at Steak-house (The place whereby I fell deeply in love with the furniture)
04. Breakfast in Mini Tinga à lovely home-stay that serves fantastic breakfast
03. Taking 3 buses to reach Pramanan Temple!!! (in total from Borobudur to Pramanana is 6 buses !!!)
02. Swimming in Green Canyon à you got to see the pictures when I upload them.
01. Ride a motorbike without license in Pangandaran
I just can’t wait for Trina to pass me the pictures so that I can upload them…
Pen off for now ….
Time for my Tolak Angin ….. *cough cough*
03 July 2008
End of Story - Stupid Liar !!!!!
We started to unfold the lies, which at the end of the day, we lost count of the number of lies he told. What a pathological liar….
Just 11 years old and such a great liar, I can’t imagine what this child will grow up to be. For the past few days, I feel like I was in an episode of Criminal’s Mind. I guess the worst part was that towards the end, his mother was the one indulging his behavior. Perhaps, it is difficult for the mother to accept the behavior of the child. Plus I guess the mother isn’t resourceful enough to handle the child or maybe the mother is just in her own denial.
For all the cases I handled, I would say that he holds the no. 1 in lying. To me, I can tolerate slow learner and mental disorders children, but for smart and intelligent child who manipulate others. My philosophy is that if I work with children, the parents must give consent to any intervention, if not I will not work with the child and parent.
~End of June Camp Season~
Now is the time to have some fun.
I’m located at Lake Lido, Sukabumi – Indonesia. I just went out to the night market just outside the hotel. There wasn’t anything that caught my attention in the market, but just as when we were about to leave the night market, I saw a road side stall selling steam peanuts. That’s my favorite, and it remind me about my childhood whereby my grandfather will pass me the freshly pluck out peanuts and my mom will take home to steam for me. So we brought 2 big bags of peanuts back to the hotel. As we were walking back, we found that most of the peanuts weren’t really cooked. And guess what…
We went back to the hotel room, and pour all the peanuts into the kettle, put water and boil. Cranky !!!! but it worked and it was really fun doing things out of the norm. =)
Just 11 years old and such a great liar, I can’t imagine what this child will grow up to be. For the past few days, I feel like I was in an episode of Criminal’s Mind. I guess the worst part was that towards the end, his mother was the one indulging his behavior. Perhaps, it is difficult for the mother to accept the behavior of the child. Plus I guess the mother isn’t resourceful enough to handle the child or maybe the mother is just in her own denial.
For all the cases I handled, I would say that he holds the no. 1 in lying. To me, I can tolerate slow learner and mental disorders children, but for smart and intelligent child who manipulate others. My philosophy is that if I work with children, the parents must give consent to any intervention, if not I will not work with the child and parent.
~End of June Camp Season~
Now is the time to have some fun.
I’m located at Lake Lido, Sukabumi – Indonesia. I just went out to the night market just outside the hotel. There wasn’t anything that caught my attention in the market, but just as when we were about to leave the night market, I saw a road side stall selling steam peanuts. That’s my favorite, and it remind me about my childhood whereby my grandfather will pass me the freshly pluck out peanuts and my mom will take home to steam for me. So we brought 2 big bags of peanuts back to the hotel. As we were walking back, we found that most of the peanuts weren’t really cooked. And guess what…
We went back to the hotel room, and pour all the peanuts into the kettle, put water and boil. Cranky !!!! but it worked and it was really fun doing things out of the norm. =)
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