HOPE

This blog is specially written, HOPING to nudge humanity among people.
Part of me feels that this society lacks humanity. Maybe it is just what I chose to see.
I was in bus 857 heading home from Suntec, I was very lucky to get a seat together with my mom since we board the bus from the terminal. Well, after 2 stops, at esplanade, an Indian lady board the bus, she was carry an infant with her. My look whispered to me asking if wanna give up my seat for her. Well, initially I didn’t want, in fact I was a little reluctant and my legs are aching after long day of walking. (that was a guy sitting in front of me.. so I was kinda of expecting him to give up his seat.. being more gentleman..)

At the end, out of conscious guilt I stood up and gave my seat to her.
She sat down without expressing her appreciation / or say thank you.
For a moment, I felt that I “ought” to give up my seat for her! (I was upset!)

And I had to desensitize my dismay for the whole journey.
I debated with myself for a long time….

01. When I did a good deed, was I looking for a return ???
02. No one force me to give up my seat, so theoretically I “volunteered” myself. (I asked for it)
03. Ill-mannered! A thank you would kill you izzit?
04. Do you really need people to appreciate your good deed? Consciously speaking, you did your part to live up your moral conscious..
05. This is life! Stop dreaming..

Conclusion: at the end of the day, I touch my heart and I can answer my own morality..
*Touching hearts, inspiring lives*

I really hope that one day the society will be "warmer". (not global warming!)

My freckles are fading

As far as I have memories, I always remember that I have freckles on my face.
Just like those Caucasian, and I always feel special about them being on my face.
Until recently, my freckles was so bad that I have friends telling me this: I told you drew them on your face.. =(

And during CNY, my 2nd uncle was so shock to see me… (He is very knowledgeable in TCM and natural healing…) According to him, I look like some sick patient and he insist that there is something wrong with my liver.

Just 1 week after CNY, I was down with Chronic Sinusitis.. (God, it torture me for a month already!!!) After 2 weeks of western medication, things are not working out, worst still there were some complications... so I turn to take TCM instead. I met this old physician and he said the same thing as my uncle.. and surprisingly my liver is the cause of sinus..
Now 2 weeks into TCM.. I’m seeing that my freckles are fading… Yeah !!!

Job Satisfaction VS Income

90% of the people are in the profession / job /work that they either don’t like or they have no passion for. I just met up with a friend and we were on the topic, retrenchment. O yes. He is one of the “victims” from the US economic.
It would be heaven for people to be in the profession that is close to their heart. I’m not sure if you are one of the lucky ones, but I am.

Personally, monetary reward is nothing compare to the nutriment of my soul. I can’t see myself in a HIGHLY paid job and feel soulless. EEEEeeee.. is just like the living dead.
No idea how some people manage to survive that, and probably that’s what kept them “hanging” there like some soulless / wandering spirit…

Well, for sure I know that my experience, my life is so much richer than my income. What’s the purpose of having $ but you are not happy? Isn’t that sad? Yet at the same time, I don’t see how happy one can be being penniless. So where’s the balance?

Incompetent or Not Trainable

In my line of work, I come into contact with many people.
Have seen tremendous improvement from others and yet one of the things that I take it to heart is the person willing to strive for betterment.

I believe that everyone is trainable and to certain extend, given faith, hope and empowerment. Things will always work out. Later then I realized that not everyone want to be better. I have been working with him for two years, from worst till beyond salvation. I really wonder, am I the one that is incompetent in making the difference, (Sometime I even fill that I’m just “dreaming” and “hallucinating” myself that things will be better.) Or the flip side of it is, this person cannot be taught!

I think I have to come to term with myself soon. Reality after all means cruelty.
Humanity doesn’t seem to exist in the dictionary of this society.
Perhaps ISFP just need to meet similar SF people..

Simple & Meaningful

One day, the young lion asked his mom: "Mom, where is the happiness?" Mom replied: "It's on your tail." So the young lion keeps on chasing after his tail. But after a whole day of trying, he failed to get the happiness that was on his tail.
Then he told his mom about this, his mom smiled and said: "Son, you don't really need to chase after your happiness, as long as you keep going and moving forward, your happiness will always be with you."

You can't decide the length of life, but you can control how you want to live it.
You can't control the weather, but you can control your mood.
You can't change your look, but you can smile.
You can't control others, but you can control yourself.
You can't foresee tomorrow, but you can utilize today wisely.
You can't win everything, but you can try your very best to achieve that.
Hope everyone can face the daily life positively and always happy...

Lessons Learnt from Foot Reflexology Sessions

What I had experience is just so amazing!
I walked in the usual massage place in Ambassdor Mall (Jakarta) for my one an half hour wind down session.
Just as I was about to start my session, another person join me. Her name is Mery. Apparently she can speak good English. She was really helpful, because of her, I could communicate with the masseur. As the masseur was massaging, he kept burping till the extend that I would think he is going to puke anytime. So I got Mery to ask if he is okay.
He replied that he is alright and the person is not alright is ME. Huh ?!?!?! He said that my body was not in good condition and that’s why he is burping. When he is massaging, the “bad air” in my body will be expelled and therefore cause him to burp.
At first I thought he was just kidding, later then I found out that he meant it. I’m so amaze by the “special skills” he has and he is the first ever masseur that I felt he has the extraordinary power. This is the best healing massage. Indeed, after the message, it seems like my headache from the flight is all gone and I got this unexplainable relief. $ worth RP60,000 (SGD 9).

This reminded me about another massage stories. (I mentioned to many people, but yet blog it.. I think is amazing life lesson..)
2 years ago, I went Cambodia for holiday. After all the temple trips, my legs were aching like hell. So both my mom and I popped into the nearest foot reflexology place from our hotel. It got to be me and my big mouth again, I started to chit chat with the masseurs (my mom’s and mine). To ask how many years experience they have etc… Talk and talk… also don’t know how we reach there, but I remembered that I ask my masseur how old is she… to my surprise, we are the same age.. then being curious, I asked about which month she is her birthday day… you would be able to guess by now.. !!! (we share the SAME birthday. Same year, month and day.) I look at my mom and said this: I could have been the one that is taking her seat and she could have been your daughter.

Well, my Cambodia trip was a really interesting one!!! I found my name craved on one of the temple.

Hurt & Disappointed

The person that you care the most would usually hurt you more.
I have no idea what’s has gotten into his mind. Someone that I look up to has become such a pest.
The hurt and disappointment seems to be mountain high. The sight of him is just so painful.
I love him and yet I’m hurt by him over and over again. I’m not sure if he has got feelings for us or it has already been the past.
I felt cheated that I travel all the way to meet you and yet, the welcome wasn’t exactly welcoming at all.
You could have been honest that this rapid disaster will not happen. I’m not sure if I’m going to believe you.
If you are reading this, I really hope that you can spare some thoughts for us. Perhaps you don't care anymore. I wish to say: I hate you !!! which I know I don't.... I no longer can tell the differences between Hate, Hurt, Angry and disappoint. The worst is that these are all I feel for you now.

I open my arm and accept what your decision and all we deserver is “because she is petty”
Things could have turn more nasty if we want to. If she cannot deal with herself, that’s her problem.
Current can be past too. Now is history. There will be this day that she will be sorry.

I need to live my own life. If you are here to hurt me, GET LOST.
My tears are only meant for people who I love. There ain't any for you anymore.

To my beloved brother, I got only this little faith left. Embrace the storm ahead and you will be someone stronger.
Everything happens for a purpose and reason. Let’s take these life lessons to enrich our lives and make each day the best of our lives.

To my lovely mother, I thank you so much for all that you have done for me. Thank you for the lovely home that we set up together. You taught me well. I'm sorry for certain decision that I made. Our lives will get better each day, I'll always be the one that you can depend on. I love you and I'm forever grateful for everything you done for me. Love Always